A Scribble and A Dream (33) - He Leadeth Me

HE LEADETH ME

October 12, 2018.

A day after she got the final news.

Her colleague is really leaving.

Her very first equal comrade in this firm

who has helped her endure the storm of the last busy season.

She had been crying in solitude for 2 nights straight.

Having sleepless nights for the consecutive 3 days.

Out of grief due to a close colleague leaving,

and out of fear of the even crazier workload for the upcoming busy season.

Look, how is she going to cope?

And her currently unfit condition due to flu is not helping either.

Amidst all the plans that has been buzzing in her tired mind.

She suddenly remembers this one simple song.

"He leadeth me, by His own hand He leadeth me."

She walks slowly to the piano.

Her fingers start pressing the keys, her heart starts to sing along.

Then she feels the soft urge to start her morning devotion.

Her only prayer?

"God, please help me, and soothe my weary, grieving soul."

The first reading points to the parable of the seed sower.

In particular, the third type of seed.

Those who fell among thorns, and ended up choked.

One of the thorns were the cares and worries of the world.

She has been worried indeed.

Trying to take control over something that is actually out of her own ability.

Trying so hard to rely to something that is not God.

Trying to fix it with her own strength.

Then comes her second prayer.

"God, here I am, laying down all my worries to Thee.

Help me, for I am unable to help myself.

As Thou has wonderfully and faithfully led me through the past busy seasons,

please lead me again this time."

And to her amazement, her second reading is entitled:

Safe in the Arms of Jesus

And as she read on through the passage:

He tends his flock like a shepherd:
    He gathers the lambs in his arms
and carries them close to his heart;
    he gently leads those that have young.

Her tears flows down once more.
Not out of sadness, but out of peace and comfort.
God has indeed lead her to a place of rest.
A promise needed for a weary heart.

She closes her Bible.
With all these promises, why should she ever fear?

Another day, another work.
A time for another calling.
She is now ready, for the Lord is with her.
Today, and for the days to come.

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